Sunday, November 13, 2011

Scriptwriting for Runaways

I finally have the time to sit down with my scripts again and I must say: It's MY pleasure! It's actually quite difficult to put into words how ecstatic I am, but I am. For those of you who haven't fallen in love with writing yet: I have no clue as to how this could've happened. Creating an idea from scratch, brainstorming the hell out of it and puzzling it together is pretty much one of my favorite things in the world. It's like solving a complicated case while bungee jumping - nothing gets my brain cells going or satisfies me as much as THIS!

I would even go as far as stating 'writing has the ability to keep you sane' because it challenges your logic and helps you understand the human condition (which we can all use on a daily basis). It took me a while to discover the written word yet now I can't imagine living without it. Especially after realizing how many times I read a script as an actress and knew exactly what could've made it even better. It drove me crazy - so I needed to give it a try... My first attempts weren't good that's for sure. But everything needs time so I studied patiently. No script writing book was safe- neither were any of my writer friends.

Scripts on a plane
First successes with my short films followed. I was hooked! The beauty about it is that whether it's a recreation of a magical moment you experienced, sharing your most traumatic event or coming up with an inspiring dialog- it's a blessing. The beautiful interactions, challenges and highlights of our relationships in writing; hopefully to be seen by an audience one day! It's therapeutic and a service at the same time.

What's even more important is the empowerment that comes with your original project; your own vision. Something that, being a performer with much time in between projects, is vital to our confidence. My creations are my anker in a rough sea (which - suprise! - happens a lot in the entertainment industry). Whenever difficulties occur or someone struggles to make his vision a reality: My own projects are always waiting for me.

Not all the projects will or can even go somewhere, but every single one of the ones I've been involved in taught me something new. So I never felt like it was a waste of time. Therefore it's adviced to work on as many as your time allows. It can get a little confusing of course, but it certainly takes the pressure off of having to make the current script a hit. Stories have to breathe, grow in their own time. I've been writing a few of my scripts for years now - knowing it's not their turn yet!

One of the projects that instantly caught my attention is now called "Crosscuts". Claus Völker, my writing partner, approached me with a lose idea of a catchy story and fascinating characters in 2009 which grew to an epic wonderful action-thriller. Taking a long time finding the right structure, it is now ready for a final draft. The writing became more and more complex to a point when we had to stop the process to get funding for further rewrites (which we're trying to get as we speak).

So we decided to team up with the amazing Nancy Quan who helped us building a website for this purpose. The page has a first synopsis of the story, a brief rundown of our main characters as well as the cities we'll shoot in, and first insights in our research (mood shots). I'm very excited to here within launch it and hope to get you all excited about it!

The page is: www.crosscuts-movie.com/

Your ThrillerNista

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Why meditation works - an attempt to blow your mind

Hey everyone! Sorry it has been so long since my last blog but I was literally on a different consciousness for a view weeks and now feel like sharing what I've been experiencing. Interestingly enough, a meditation group with a wonderful leader has entered my life and my prayers for finding a cure for my "somewhat feeling off beat" have been heard. I've always been spiritual, talk to the one upstairs on a daily basis and have been practising to tune into my intuition for almost seven years now. Yet I've never come across other spiritualists I could jam with.

I met Laurie (the guru) through friends and she's been of incredible help with things I've been struggling with for years now- yet was never able to entirely understand by myself. As many of you know I've had a hard time dealing with my father's passing four years ago. Though I now had come to a point where I felt like I was ready to ask for help dealing with it. It might sound like vodoo to some people, but meditation and energy work really works. It allowed me to shed my unwanted emotions, taught me valuable lessons about how to deal with circumstances and continues to educate me ever since.

Since I've been going to the group twice a week, I've had unbelievable results with my blocks. I feel connected, stronger, am empowered in my everyday life. I'm humbled in trying to control anything. It makes me want to strive being a generous as well as guided person to do what I was born to do in this lifetime - trying to diminish any remaining confusion as to what should be done by truly accepting a higher force as the only true knowledge.

Many of my dear friends or loved ones have already joined the group as well and have experienced the same changes in their lives. The possibilities that lie in tuning into a worldy energy, asking questions about our current situations and learning from books of the wisest gurus of all time, are endless. I can highly recommend joining us every monday and thursday. It's free. The mission is to achieve the highest you, build a force of healing energy and help the universe. Very simple.

Since my healing process I finally feel at peace with my father's passing. I have also been working on allowing the best actress possible in me to come forth (which was harder than I thought) and have currently five (!) new feature film scripts on my table - gifts from the one upstairs to express his support in this mission. I then decided to try getting together a marketing related editorial photoshoot (which has always been one of my dreams) that went so smooth and created results that exceeded my expectations, I forgot I was in LA for a moment. Unbelievable! Meant to be and simply right.

If you do the work, grow, study and ask for what you really want, the universe will provide! If you're new to what I've been talking about here and are contemplating of getting me locked up, I recommend reading "The Power of consciousness" by Neville first. Enjoy the selection of my favorite photos from the amazing shooting!

photography_www.ioboka.com
make-up_Taylor Tanaka
hair_Melanie McCoy

Your GuruNista


Monday, July 18, 2011

The perfect headshot

Oh, how we all dislike them – headshots! Am I right? They’re that crucial part of our job which limits our essence to appearance and a snapshot; a short moment in time that cannot possibly reflect all the epic characters hidden behind our facade. They seem superficial. It’s almost funny how afraid we are of this necessary tool that should simply portrait us. One reason is because it’s often hard to figure out which part of us makes us original. I sometimes look like two different people in one day, so trust me... if anyone can relate to your dilemma it’s me!

The wise guy
We all have different sides, yet, to take some of your fears off: Everyone knows that and doesn't expect to see every possible character you could pull off in your headshot. Keep it simple, focus on your true essence to come out. A headshot stands out if it’s the most relaxed, open and confident you there is. Whether that means you are upbeat, shy, funny, determined, down to earth, thoughtful or fiery – it all works as long as it represents your general personality.

The other reason is because a decent headshot has somehow developed into a myth... It's discouraging to hear that most headshots are bad! My friend Henning and I didn't want to believe that. We were determined to find the secrets to the perfect headshot and discovered amazing results - surprising, soothing and encouraging. Headshots should be an investment worth paying for and a fun experience. Not a traumatic event on the brink of a heart attack.

 Most agents and actors aren’t happy with their headshots. What’s interesting though is that neither lighting nor camera seems to make a shot great (even though a nice look of a photo can add to its appeal of course) but the setting of the shooting. I heard horror stories from actors who felt bombarded by their photographer because he tried to shoot as many pictures as possible before the next client shows up. A nightmare! The circumstances the actors are faced with, how comfortable they are and how much they trust the photographer is crucial.

The free spirit
Of course it’s not easy to open up in front of a bunch of strangers (photographer, stylist, assistant) but it can be, if you know what to focus on. A photographer that shows interest in his client before the shoot creates a relationship and makes the actor feel in a team- instead of feeling deserted and alone in front of that lens. Don't be afraid because the camera can be your friend if you know how to handle it! 

Curious about what the industry has to say about the perfect headshot, Henning and me took workshops with other photographers and casting directors. We asked them about expectations, problems, and ideals. It was interesting that everyone agreed on what a great headshot is. Here’s what we heard: “It should show YOU in the picture; charismatic, confident, and on your best day. Stay away from too much make up, colorful clothes, distracting backdrops or fake posing. The simpler, the better. It’s important to see your individual strength that makes you the right choice for the role. You make our job much easier by showing us what character we could cast you in. Embrace that and own it in your headshot the way you would on set. When you think your character and we see that behind your eyes (instead of a blank stare) your photo will stand out!”

So the mission is clear: Act the character you can play best (or are anyway), keep it simple and be natural. But the matter of fact is that photo shootings can be overwhelming and relaxing while worrying about hair & make-up seems like an art form itself. The last thing on our list is keeping a character alive when every single muscle in our body decided to strike. Actors mentioned to me that the toughest part about finding a photographer is to find someone who understands and gives feedback during the shoot (unless you have $1,000 and up to get the best). Everyone is nervous taking pictures- especially because we've seen the way we looked at those last party pictures!

In my opinion, it’s just as important to ‘work’ with the content of the picture as being concerned about lighting and focus. Actors aren’t models that learned to show different looks or hold a pose for a picture. Performers live their character’s life and need a director or at least a scene partner to function right. If we could only have a coach by our side that supports us getting into character, helps us focus, and maybe even feeds us with images - I’d probably be the solution for our confusion. Actors on a higher level usually have help for that or are used to focus by themselves. Most actors are still struggling with the situation though and are under the mercy of the photographer’s instructions.


What’s important to know is that photography is like anything else: The more you’re in the moment and patiently wait for the good stuff, the better the results. It doesn’t hurt to breathe either. Many photographers that shoot humans don’t know that it’s hard to create a life in front of a blank wall. It’s actually no secret how much actors usually despise it, but unfortunately hardly any photographer got the call to pay more attention to the object yet. They probably hope to be able to ignore it, but I honestly think it’s because they often don’t know anything about an actor’s process. Maybe they think it’s not part of their job.

The vamp
My advice would be not to take too many workshops on this, too. I’ve seen actors that looked like a deer in headlights, filled up with all this information in their head and afraid to move at all. It’s valuable to think about the character you’d like to play or a possible scene you could be in, instead of your complicated marketing plan, your crooked nose or the horrible last pictures you took. Music does wonders for some people. Focussing on ‘the thought of being on set’ can also create that spark and joy behind your eyes while manifesting this wish in your subconscious mind. You gotta believe it to be it!

Other people (especially insecure photographers) assume our essence will automatically come out by shooting away and changing the angle a bit- while we, the actor, only have a single thought in our brain: What does he expect me to do right now? The results are stale, lifeless pictures and a collection of empty or insecure expressions. What we want though is a shot that radiates strength, evokes thoughts in the person looking at it - attracts attention!

Many agencies have a ‘best of’ list of their favourite photographers which often goes back to a long relationship. This list can be a fabulous group of talented photographers, but it can also be a ‘who is who’ of your agent’s golf buddies. Go with your guts, get recommendations from other actors or look at their page when picking your photographer. Henning and I, who both have been taking photos for a while, decided, it would actually be awesome to take headshots ourselves. We aren’t afraid of creating personal relationships, have the ability to take photos and understand actors.  We called our company HPF Photography. We’re working on getting in some agency roosters right now too.

There’s no guarantee (with any photographer) you’ll always have a perfect shot from one session, but the chances are much higher with knowing what you want from your photos. The most important thing you can do is making sure you know who you are. The photographer won’t have time to investigate that on the day of shooting. If you have no idea what that means or aren’t sure who you are, ask people that are close to you: Family, friends, agents, partners, even neighbours. Ask them what kind of person they think you are or could be. What do they love about you? Do they like a certain outfit best? Create your own focus group! If you're a loner and don't have enough friends: Take workshops about marketing for actors. It’ll help you seeing yourself through others and will confirm or straighten out your own beliefs. Actors have to know their strength to be effective.

Below is a helpful list of archetypes where your focus group can mark the ones you fit into. The category you got the most votes for, is your strongest bet for being booked. A general audience is much smarter than you think. You can also add the category ‘lead or supporting?’ on the bottom. It’s a crucial question, but helpful! Many actors have made fabulous careers with playing side characters.

Professional (business), athletic, college, teacher, best friend, next door, parent, blue collar, nerd, rebel, cop, wise, lower class, beauty queen, bohemian, sophisticated, funny, homeless, young, evil, quirky, etc...
There’re plenty of sub-categories of course, but this is a brief summary of types that are usually cast. Genres can be interesting too (period, horror, comedy, thriller, love story, drama, action, fantasy, etc.) and should be on your list if you’re a pure romantic etc. The more passion you bring the better. Please don’t come in with an outrageous list of epic film characters you would love to play. Especially not, if you’d be a fantastic sidekick but would never be cast for a leading role. We’re all born with our unique, individual strength that defines us. The sooner you accept what you got, the faster you’ll succeed.

A few other, practical tips can improve your photos too. Some examples from the HPF photography bag of tricks: Lower your chin (looks more flattering), straighten up your spine (shows confidence) and breathe consciously (relaxes and grounds the energy). A small step for actors, a big one for headshots!

What I would like to stress out is that this industry, especially with all its glamour and glory, often seems to want us a certain way. But what filmmakers actually want are normal, down to earth, interesting, hard working, dedicated and relaxed human beings that act naturally. Keep this in mind and you’ll be surprised how much easier it actually is! Realize that we all love those actors that are comfortable being themselves, without acting or trying to be someone they are not. The ones that struggle with it usually stop being cast.


Our photography business can now be found at:
 www.hpfphotography.com


We already have a first portfolio which shows you what we do. We work in a team to focus on the technical aspects and guide you at the same time (so you get double the power). A few actors already got representation through our pictures, booked auditions and reported back from happy agents. You can email us at hpfphotography@gmail.com or call (213) 986-8048 if you want to book a session.

We love headshots now.

Your HeadshotNista.


Saturday, July 9, 2011

The priority trap

It’s challenging to be an entrepreneur- no matter what business you’re in. Yet actors are faced with the additional struggle to set their priorities right. The seemingly overwhelming amount of work actors are supposed to put in (and the little actual time they have for that) as well as last minute schedules appear to make it almost impossible to lead a successful business... Wrong! Let’s look at how to distinguish between a real opportunity and a waste of your precious time.

The problem starts with the endless struggle to make money - which pushes almost ever actor right into the arms of gastronomy. The sad truth is: Serving also burns you out, gets you quickly comfortable or, even worse, lowers your confidence in becoming a working actor. Deciding to work as a waiter is especially difficult when you don’t have a plan and catch yourself dropping the whole acting thing since that would cost the same energy to do it right (which you don’t have since you're hiding in a diner). I wonder why actors don’t think bigger and rule creative financial solutions out before even giving them a try?! Why not producing your own projects, working in the business, doing extra work (an excellent way to meet people) or finding ways to make more money in less time? Do your job of being a creative person and get creative with that too! Open up for better possibilities.

True dedication requires maintenance. You can only act with self esteem and a true hunger for it - which you are responsible for. Not many actors maintain a balance between their job and pursuing a career. Sometimes it’s even more useful to truly commit to being a waiter for a while, distant yourself from acting, pick a different life you can gain confidence in and then come back to it. It’s hard to perform well, if your constant state of mind is stress, unhappiness or feeling like you’ve enslaved yourself to the money machine.

If you're a beginner actor, you probably still have the spark that it takes to be an actor. You glow from positivity, enthusiasm and thinking about your big dreams! Yet be aware you're not ready to work until your first successes have settled in and you had time to get used to the glory. Otherwise you might end up blowing your success out of proportion, believing every tiny success is a major step, and ending up with a head that's too big to carry. I know being in this industry often seems like a long dry spell without water, but if you catch yourself being desperate for success, you’ve fallen into the rabbit hole. Even worse is when you can’t pass for being a beginner any more, but still convince yourself this no budget music video you just booked will be your breakthrough. Knowing where you stand will be your first step.

Of course it’s not easy to stay objective in a business that promises an exciting life, but is extremely hard to get into. You want to belong so badly. I understand. I also understand that, just to stay sane in a city that produces selfish people with no time to connect with others, you need to get away once in a while. But I'd suggest you only do so, if you’ve deserved it by actually working hard to become a serious actor! Not if you’re stuck in an endless string of self inflicted struggles, got sucked into a state of misery or too afraid to face the truth - then it might be time to take a step back and face facts instead of running away. It’ll humble you and probably change your route for the better! Don’t be afraid to suffer- it heals.

Actors tend to burn themselves out instead of deciding to be effective. They get overwhelmed by responsibility; forget what they’re fighting for in the first place. The common 'denial' is simply an excuse not to take action, which will eventually catch up with them anyway. That's why keeping the focus is crucial! If you lose what you’re trying to achieve it’ll only take a few days until things get difficult and you, probably even unnoticeable, get frustrated. A bestselling book I can highly recommend is: http://www.theartistsway.com/

The next important step is to learn to say NO. "Nope", "nah, "I don’t think so" works too. How often do we have to make a decision between making money, shooting a short film, reading a ninety pages script, going grocery shopping, submitting to more projects, attending three birthday parties and taking the dog to the vet? It’s a matter of deciding what’s most important plus learning to navigate; maybe even asking others to help out.

Regarding projects it’s helpful to turn a project down that's plastered with red flags and will cause more headaches than possibilities to show your best. Stay critical! 
Be aware of the level you’re at and turn down projects that are still figuring how to light a shot, while you’re ready to try yourself at serious parts for your first demo reel. It might take some time to find those jewels, but they’re worth looking for and prevent you from falling back by selling yourself under value. Nobody cares if you had a gap between projects if you only do quality work. Everyone will respect you for that! Don’t forget it’s always an option to shoot something yourself that’s rich and designed for the exact part you’d like to go out for. Sometimes it’s even more advised to invest a few hundred dollars into that instead of running after other projects. 

I myself have shot this really promising short film last year - awesome script, perfectly shot and a truly great first edit - which never got finished! Can you believe it? The project failed, because one lead actor obviously was so overwhelmed on set he messed up his part and had to be cut out of the project… A fact that disappointed the director that much, he never finished the film. A sad story (and more reason to appeal to actors to be ready!) and something I’m still mourning over on a weekly basis, but writing it off as ‘depending on other people which is, and sadly always will be, part of the business’. So be smart, be proactive.

Next: How to spot a project that actually has potential to go somewhere or at least challenges you as a performer? Of course it’s not easy, but there’re indications. You can train your eye for a good script by simply reading famous scripts you can download online, talking to writers or filmmakers, reading genius books like ‘Save the cat’ and analyzing your favourite films! This will benefit you in the long run and school you in filmmaking – which is important for any actor since understanding the process of filmmaking helps them being supportive on set! I love actors who offer their help instead of complaining, because they’re in the know of the challenges in filming. Be prepared to wait sometimes and bring a book.

A project that has a great script is usually a clear indication that the filmmakers are talented and experienced. Screenwriting is much harder than it looks, so it takes time to be good. If you found one, it’s time to find a character that gives you plenty of room to show your skills. Make sure you have a few lines and, ideally, an arc in the scene to make it valuable for your demo reel. Production wise it’s usually good to look at the experience, communication and ambition of the team. When they work professionally from the start, they’ll most likely take it seriously all the way. Otherwise you have given it your all, got your hopes up and are left behind empty handed.

The next thing worth mentioning: Be grateful to work!! Actors always complain about the stage of their career, yet it seems common they don’t give it their full attention once they get the chance. Flaky behavior, coming unprepared or showing ‘attitude’ often stems from insecurities of course, but I suggest you don’t let those get into your way of becoming a professional. Ungrateful behaviour (when others would kill for the same chance) is simply wrong and a lame excuse to not give it your best. You booked the gig? Make it priority. Even if you have a lot of other things going on: Show respect and don’t bother the director with your busy day. It will do miracles if you give his project your full attention!

Then you're ready to do the work because you have a chance. Actors often forget to do that, even when a good project finally comes their way, because they’re so used to constantly looking for the next one. What’s important to understand is that one great role can make a career; a list of flops often destroys one. If you’re doing as many projects as you can to get approval, you might consider therapy instead. So be alarmed not to pass on a fabulous opportunity. One of my acting coaches once said: ‘Imagine you’re standing in front of a jury and, based on your true factual evidence, they’ll decide whether you’re an successful actor or not.’ A crucial thing to say, but probably the best advice I ever got.

Once you know you have landed a project that’s worth fighting for, act professionally! Make sure you’re always on time, work the script, prepare your scenes, rehearse or work with a coach, spend enough time with the character and come fully prepared - no matter what’s going on that day (even if that means to sacrifice sleep or ditching your friend from NY). You never know when and how your next career lapse will happen in this business, so be ready! If your friends don’t understand that, you might need to find new ones. Actors often seem to have an issue with being on time so be the exception!


It should go without saying, but don’t try to get away with things by blaming it on your overbearing emotions. If you’re a slave to your feelings, you’re unpredictable and will probably explode or act upon them in the least appropriate moments. Being able to feel doesn’t make you a good actor – if that’s what you’re thinking. Being able to show them in your work will. If you can’t control them: Seek help, acknowledge your triggers and use them in your work in front of the camera instead of behind. You can have a bad day but nobody has to know that. Filmmakers want to see passion - not the necessity to ground or babysit you. Some directors might not even notice or care, but be aware that your uncontrolled emotions can quickly distract you from the scene. Mostly it’s fear, so see it as that and pick yourself up.

Another part of acting professionally is to make it possible for people to reach you. Everyone has five minutes to return a call (unless you’re on vacation without a functioning phone or on set). If you don’t call back, nor answer your phone, you demonstrate something else is more important. That’s never a good way to treat a production. This is what you’ve been waiting for so don’t blow it because you think you’re suddenly in charge. Be considerate, think out of your own schedule and realize that your actions affect other people. If you had an emergency or were truly wrapped up with something important, at least apologize for it and try to make it up next time by being overly professional.

Communication is one of the main tools actors underestimate, even get intimidated by. Yet shooting films means being part of a team you need to communicate with. If you lie, cheat or pretend to be very busy when someone would like you to be part of a promising project, you scream 'attention' instead of 'I'm here and ready!'. That also makes you a master of self sabotage and will plaster your path with failures all by yourself. Marketing is an art form which creates the opposite effect when you’re trying to imitate success, but get caught faking it. Don’t be difficult by demanding certain time slots for your private problems or appointments that you could actually reschedule to accommodate the production. If ten people complain about the same things with you, they’re probably true. Be smart and learn.

Everyone has their reasons to do things a certain way, yet that doesn’t always make it right. It’s actually necessary to create a framework for our job that enables you to focus on being an actor. Not just by getting help from an agent, but living a certain lifestyle yourself. Much of that has to do with your principles, consideration of other people and ability to learn. Asking for help with whatever you have troubles with, is often the key! Great ways for that are friends, therapy, group meetings or acting communities. There're plenty in this town.

You’re ready to work as soon as you have the right attitude, knowledge and rhythm to navigate your business to the top. Learn where you have a tendency to set your priorities wrong and change it. Be in the moment, compare the current decision with your overall plan and make the right decision! You owe it to your dreams.

Your PriorNista

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Using SEX right

Today’s blog will be about - no, not prostitution - but the controversy about SEX and selling it to the public. It’s been close to my heart to address this important (and all so present) problem in Hollywood for quite some time now, so here it is.


Fact is: Sex is, and will probably always be, the most wonderful thing in the world. We can all agree on that, right? Not just because it burns calories faster than any fitness studio or lifts us into hormone heaven, but because it’s an adventure! It takes us away, creates shelter; even helps us escaping from our mostly boring days. We feel FREE.


Unfortunately we’re not the only ones in the know, but have to share that wisdom with people who make their living with manipulation: the media. Oh and how they exploit it! But it seems like I’m not the only one being annoyed by the flood of photoshopped bodies. Placed in almost every music video, commercial, film, and TV show (not even subtle!) the creators seem to forget that not everyone IS sexy.


The reason why most of the media’s forceful attempts fail is: They haven’t been done right! Not everyone is turned on by anorexic teenagers posing as if they knew what sex appeal is. A photoshopped poster of plastic faces doesn’t do it for me either. Nor do bodies that seem to go through fitness torture on a daily basis. What's important for me is that the performer is comfortable with himself and enjoys it. Not everyone is. Please don’t over saturate us with painfully forced porn pictures! It takes away the pleasure and has the opposite effect - it commercializes sex.


The same goes for upcoming young directors who mistake a half naked scene in their amateur short film for a sexual experience. It’s just not the same. I do understand the problem of not getting laid, but lots of skin has and will never make up for a crappy story. Trust me - it has been tried before.


America of course has its own issues with sex- especially in comparison with the rest of the world that wasn’t founded by puritans. If only the conflict of ‘selling sex’ and ‘somehow holding on to treating it respectfully’ would finally come together in a satisfying compromise. The contradictions have been going on long enough. Make sex a healthy and a beautiful thing again! Otherwise the porn industry will continue to define it, and create an entire breakdown of gender communication.


Porn, the epitome of selfish pleasure (masculine that usually is), seems to be the last manly resort in today’s isolation. Unfortunately all it does is portraying women in an funny way and planting images in men’s head that create a bizarre expectation. Not to mention how it demystifies the act of love and makes it an act of sex. Shouldn’t sex actually be sensual, about a connection and love? As far as I’m concerned its very definition is seduction, playfulness, connection and passion- not a technique.


Something else I’ve especially noticed in the states is that recent shifts, changes and modernizations have created chaos - followed by confusion. Men here are desperate because women have been taught to be hard to get. The women on the other hand, tease men (with the shortest dresses I’ve ever seen) but they need at least five paid for dates (a very American concept) to be won over. Wow - that sounds like a lot of work before you even get to check if you’re sexually compatible! Why being so difficult and resist natural desire?


I mean: We do live longer, but I certainly don't want to waste my time with someone who never French kissed before! Am I wrong? And I'm not talking about sleeping with any man I’ve met ten minutes ago, but acknowledging a heavy flirtation and allowing it to lead into a one night adventure if it presents itself?!


American women often even ban sex completely because their upbringing caused a ‘princess syndrome’ making them believe, they’re too good for any man (supposedly caused by the last generation of single mothers & their disappointment in the father of their children). I don't think that's fair... That can't be good for anyone. Plus: It creates a huge distant and makes the men look bad. There will always be insecurities in relationships but it’s all a matter of communication! 

a sexy attempt
Sex is power- but it shouldn’t be ‘overpowering the opposite sex’, neither exploiting the female sexuality. I vote for “making love” to come back in fashion!!! Here’s my sexy picture I took while seducing, gaming and falling into passion with the man behind the camera.





Your SexyNista.

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Agents aren't magicians!


Creating our own hype @Playboy mansion,
April Malina/ Jessica Franz

The other day in Hollywood: Mr. X "Who is your agent? Oh, you don't have one... That's too bad. Well, I'm with [name drop]." Me "Nice! So do they get you a lot of work?!" Mr. X "They don't really get me anything..."

This actually gives a pretty accurate picture of the situation in this town- especially lately. So please: Don't be embarrassed not to be signed yet- it doesn't mean anything!! You either don't have an agent, or you have one who doesn't do anything for you. Both isn't good, but realistic right now. The truth is: There probably even isn't enough to even get you in on. There's still no money spend or to be made at the moment.

Looking at it from an actor's perspective there's of course reason to complain about the standstill of our careers. Yet the poor agents are definitely not the ones to blame. Since I'm also working on "the other side" of the industry, I feel like setting the record straight what the people on our side can and will do. Agents are our friends. Agents might have a couple of contacts they can pull for you, but they are just as much depended on our genius, boldness and ability to create a hype around us! They aren't magicians.

With billions of people in this world (and half of them wanting to become actors these days) it is only understandable that not everyone can represent our craft and work as a performer. But if you are: There's still a lot more to do than being fabulous, loving the human condition and possessing the willingness to make a fool of ourselves in front of a camera.

It takes a mission. I want to know what you have to say, what your insights are, how inspiring you can be. And most of all: How authentic you are in the midst of lost souls. So SHOW IT!! It is called SHOW-business, not Hide-business. This includes showing it in short films (only the ones that have a minimum of professionalism please- otherwise you waste your time on something that won't be worth your time), theatre or independent films if nothing else.

What most people seem to forget: Everyone had to start somewhere and you wouldn't be the first one committing to a small film that suddenly becomes a festival hit. THEN you get discovered while WORKing- not depressing in your room, selling yourself on parties or hoping to win the award for "best dressed no name nobody has ever seen acting on a red carpet event". I heard the other day that even Angelina Jolie, though being daughter of influential people, did dozen of student films before landing Gina (an independent film!) and getting noticed for the first time.

As soon as you are ready, radiate esprit and success, the agent will be able to get you on that train and manage your ride. Anything before that is like believing in the Easter bunny: A cute story but unfortunately an unrealistic myth.

Your RealisTA

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Learning to be effective!


Lu & Byrne's successfull series
Today's blog is about the hope within the community of artists that 'deciding to be one' is enough. I wish it was true- because it would be amazing if we could be creative all the time without worrying about the rest. But life isn't like that, nor is art. So let's look at the work we're realistically putting in to become a true actor.

First the good news: The amount of talented, free spirited artists in Hollywood is as big as entire countries. Meeting people that not only think alike, but understand the concept of freeing their minds from conformity makes me truly happy. Now the bad news: The amount of wrong turns that are being made and ineffective priorities focussed on is just as big (a fact that not only leads to dead ends but also wastes a lot of time).

I'm well aware of the fact that this town can be overwhelming and the frustrating cycle of "aspiration - attempt - failure - compensating" is very hard to break. My personal tip is: Find something that grants you independence from this flaky business! Otherwise you enslave yourself to booking the next job, be validated, making the next meeting the one that counts, etc. It only leads to despair and, if unsuccessful, feeds your insecurities you're trying to get rid of. The success is within you- not the result of your actions. The world around you is fragile and will likely go through transitions, but that doesn’t affect you if you're wholesome.

Kristin- commercial queen!
Much more important is to realize when things don't work out and make us search for the reason why. How many times do we keep on trying the exact same thing, hoping it will result in a different outcome next time, when we should really listen to our intuition that tries to tell us: How you're going about it doesn't work so try something new!

Some things will work for others, but don't necessarily work for us -especially because we are all different. Being an actor we have to cover: Projects, acting classes, marketing, headshots, representation and networking. It's unfortunate, all of those elements are equally important and will cause a halt if one of them is neglected- but that's the reality of it. Your acting, work ethic, personality and marketing combined are your package. It’s a very complex but necessary one. What it comes down to is being professional within your profession. Unfortunately the competition is fierce and pressure (with the flood of aspiring performers and deficit in jobs) higher than ever before. 

J Kristopher on set
What's important is to focus on what you're best in first, and then get help from others to improve the rest. The optimum is to be good at most things yourself, because you're your own boss and should be in charge of your life. I can't even count how many times an honest, interesting conversation with an actor has turned into a clumsy attempt to sell himself to me. No agent, saving him, in sight! I wish he hadn’t tried at all or waited until he actually knows anything about pitching, but actors usually try to sell themselves without having a clue how to...! Not everyone is an excellent marketer, but there’re tricks for everything so do your homework.

Marketing techniques and business tricks are extremely helpful in any job. But having experiences with those from jobs I had I realize how much they'd do for actors too. The industry mostly is business- besides the little time an actor spends in front of the camera. So a book on it or a short lesson from your marketing friend is highly recommended! We're actors - so we learn fast and it shouldn't be a problem to play the part that gets us where we want to be. Don't forget it's all a game.

If you're interesting and got talent - people will notice! Trust me. Don't worry about that. What every teacher in this town will train you in is: Be authentic, know your strength, admit problems - don't cover it up. Trying is always better than not. If you're a true performer we want to see your list of projects or at least workshops you're taking. Never make yourself sound more than you are because that's just another form of lying. Be honest, get sympathy by making a joke or focus on strong facts. Show determination if you don't have much to back your career choice up with yet!

Tommy the old schooler

Some good examples of my effective actor friends are: My friends Byrne and Lu who created an entire season of their own web series "My roommate the", experimenting with interesting characters they wanted to try out! Or my actress friend Kristin who just booked five commercials (!) within one month by making the bold move to fire her entire representation, getting a new one and gathering all her strength to succeed in the plenty of chances she suddenly got. Then there's J who already brings so much to his characters in small projects, he already gets invited to major auditions because of the quality in his work. Tommy is an excellent networker and knows so many filmmakers he practically has three new projects lined up already- because he’s talented and a nice guy people like!

Every great movie shows you how to make something out of an early or unfortunate state of your career (especially the ones with Matt Damon), so steal Gresham’s moves! Be active, honest and work hard. If you're lost or have trouble seeing the wrong turns: Call me! We’ll make an appointment. I'm cheap and highly motivated to expand the “true artist’s community” by helping you make effective choices. :P

Your MotivatNista.

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Motion on the horizon

Good news: I'm finally spotting movement within the economy, film industry and stars! It looks like the cloud of frustration within my acting community, sparked by the lack of interesting projects or jobs, has finally passed and shines light on plenty of blossoms.

First I got a call from a producer that showed interest in adding me to her new film we'd shoot this summer. The documentary will be about six german women living in California and will be aired on german TV. Reacting in sheer panic at first regarding the intrusion into my privacy, it didn't take much to change my mind and I agreed to be part of it. After all, my adventures here (even during the tricky stages of the journey) are a big part of what I believe in: Being brave, willing to suffer, and staying humble while following our dreams. Even if that’ll mean the makers might only catch the blunt part of artist’s life- but that’s part of it.

A few days later I got the opportunity to audition for an independent feature film and got to flex my auditioning muscle again. Boy, was I glad I kept auditing my acting class (since I can't afford it right now) over the last few months. That way it was much easier to get back into it. All I had to do was relaxing while bringing my self to it.

I gotta say: Any break from acting truly makes me appreciate the process again and helps me staying calm, so I was extremely happy to meet up with my active actor friend Tommy for even more inspiration today. He told me about a new film he'll be in and intents to suggest me for a part too. Motivated and ready to go, we even decided to take our excitement, write a scene and shoot it ourselves (for our reels). Something I usually never do...

The thing with Tommy and me is though: We are both in a phase of our career when we're ready to WORK but suffer from the common disease called "the newcomer syndrome". Meaning: You can be great, but nobody will give you a shot until you’ve reached a certain level in your career yourself. Sharing that, it was only logical we instantly had a strong idea for a scene and both knew what kind of material we'd love to add to our reel.

So: We're ready to take it to the next level!! I took an inspirational picture after our brainstorming for you. Watch out for our scene soon.

An idea has been born!


Sunday, February 6, 2011

Losing control!

Recently I thought a lot about the necessity and problem with control: The control of society, controlling ourselves, and being in control of what we do. Especially how quickly control can prevent us from following up on what we'd really want to do by obeying rules (sometimes even the ones that are just in our head).

We all agree the world would be pretty crazy and chaotic without control. But does it create a system we feel save in or does it make us be afraid of doing something wrong? We've been told how to 'function' in society, how to be on time, do a job we get paid for - being a disciplined human being. But what if being trained to control ourselves actually cages us in? The irony is: It doesn't even seem to truly prevent us from the things we're afraid of looking at the daily news. Things happen and life doesn't follow rules.

Now, I don't have any intention to cause a stir but I've noticed how being an artist goes against so many things we've been taught so perfectly to fit in. That makes our job so difficult. Keeping a free spirit in a time when the last rebel bends his rules to be able to pay the bills (I've heard even speaking parts get paid like a 'featured extra' these days) makes it pretty difficult. We don't live in regal medieval times or the conservative fifties any more, but we definitely still have a lot of regulations to face.

So how do we deal with control? I got very inspired by a friend who has already distant himself from conformity in some ways. Let's call him my writer friend "Mr. Z" who gave up his control over "who he will have children with" by anonymously donating into a cup a few times per week and making unknown people happy with his genetics. And judging by his looks he probably already produced a couple of blue eyed, blond sweethearts!

My personal feeling of loosing ground was recently when I was struggling with the decision to get married in the early stages of my relationship. Also, because it meant leaving my family & friends behind and moving to an entirely different country (a huge step for me). Gladly I managed to decide un-controlled and got rewarded with new challenges such as an entirely different culture, new friends, mastering the American accent, the excitement of starting a new career, a marriage. It really got my juices going!


Boarding at LAX, just after meeting
 The entire experience of meeting my husband at the airport, having a first date on the plane 30 minutes later - which became date two and three during the thirteen hours we had to make use of the limited time - and continuing the relationship long distance was a true test of my openness and willingness to hang loose (which was already stated so perfectly on his shirt that afternoon).
 
Right now I'm at a point where I'm facing my small control issues like tidying up the house all day (just in case company might come by), planning out my day so damn perfectly (to get everything done) and only feeling wholesome when validated (which can be anything really).

We only live once and I'm currently developing allergies against expectations and those "invisible" rules that others or we ourselves put upon us. Just watching TV makes me over think at least a dozen things in my life per advertisement break when those thoughts simply distract me from focussing on my true needs. My irresponsible lack of insurances, diet programs, depression pills, cleaning products, hair irons, cute children, etc. that is. I'm sure everyone can relate to that. No wonder we constantly question ourselves and are afraid of not fitting in.

My re-found secret is to resist any kind of influence that doesn't match my true inner believes. Even more so: I feel strong enough to face judgements or complaints (and re-learn to stand up for my mistakes that are necessary to make) and distant myself from people who threaten my confidence. Others will always find things to critic because they think it makes them more wholesome to find flaws in others. Being intimidated though will always take away from our personality (Note for actors: A strong personality is what actually gets us on the screen).

Our wedding 18 months later
I think it really comes down to the common misconception that perfectionism is the ultimate goal. Did you ever notice the more "perfect" we're trying to be, the more things happen to us that proof us wrong? It's a true phenomenon. I believe that's because we need to accept our individuality, flaws and struggles as part of ourselves. Enjoy the ride. Who says they're negative in the first place?! Exactly: Other people, religions or politicians who end up arguing over those rules anyway. That's why the definition of society changes every fifty years- because it's founded on personal opinions, taste or beliefs. My grandparents went through three different political systems alone and told me personally that none of them was "perfect".

Of course it's a thin line between being a professional actor functioning on set and an open artist ready to explore! We've seen it all too many times. But it's our job not to cage us in and find our own individual balance... cage-free!

Your FreeNista.


Friday, January 21, 2011

Shooting at the beach

  
Venice beach

Shooting at the beach surely creates one of those magical, unforgettable experiences that simply make you feel great. I was a beach-water child my entire life and remember the joy I felt as soon as I'd smell the salty ocean, play in the waves and cuddle up in a big towel afterwards - one of my heavenly pleasures until this day.

I'm actually not sure if my feelings are sparked by my memories or because beaches actually are pure bliss. This question especially popped into my head when a friend of mine told me he has never seen an ocean until turning 18, and he even then didn't connect with it. I found that such a weird image that I must have stared at him with an open mouth for at least 10 minutes.

I guess it makes me feel close to god. The silence under water helps me focus on my self and shuts the world out. There's humbleness I feel imagining the endless depth of water in front of me, and peacefulness enters my body with the sound of those waves. It's a powerful peace.

You can imagine my bliss when I recently got notice one of my shootings was gonna take place at Venice beach (funny that I never came up with that perfect combination myself). The experience met my expectations and shooting the commercial was amazing: Completely relaxed and improvisational with fresh air rubbing my nose all day; sand under my feet. I was at total ease...

Director Matt Nothelfer & me on set
The project is based on people's passion to live their dreams- something that I really know well being a dreamer my entire life. Somehow reality or "settling on less" were never even an option for me and almost turns me into a crazy person seeking the impossible. I think I have to thank my mother for that. :)

God only knows what an inspiration she has been to me my entire life. I hope to become such a mother one day: Supporting everything my child wants and dreams about the way she did. That's the only way we'll always go for our dreams - even when the expectations seem too high.

And we will get there with humbleness and patience.

Jessica (1986)
Your
DreamerNista


Thursday, January 20, 2011

Getting a grip on the "Come up"

Spending a noticeable amount of time on set of a major production last week was quite an experience and gave me a lot to think about… I gotta admit it's a true pleasure watching the stars act right in front of you. It really brought back my excitement that got me into acting in the first place.

I really enjoyed how serious the actors took their job, yet enjoyed being in the moment and having fun. There’s no pressure, no fame, or the scandal seeking press when it comes to the work on set. It’s not about an egotistical validation but about getting a grip on something to portray it- exactly what it should be.

Of course we all have seen great performances but seeing them live is an entirely different experience. The majority of it surely is simply hitting your marks, staying focused and knowing how a set works. But it stood out to me how minimal the actor’s effort seemed to be to achieve believable acting. Of course I've heard things like "Just be in the moment" or "You are enough" before - but what does that truly mean? I probably never understood it until last week...

Tired from 4:30 am call
The discovery is that acting truly means you simply should not act. If I'm entirely in the moment to put my own self to the situation, I'm the most natural. The irony is that it actually relaxes me, even makes it easier. That's what acting is: Naturalness in combination with true commitment to every single second of it. As soon as we start thinking, we hesitate - which manipulates the beauty of a true reaction. If we don't find the person in the script entirely in us, it will show on camera. Only to mention a few traps. Letting ourselves act how we would anyway avoids all of that. Casting should take care of finding the right actor for the part.

I've already experimented with reacting in my most authentic way for the past week and gotta say it feels real good! I discovered my rhythm is much slower yet intense than I used to think. Simply relaxing, reacting and watching what happens is already half the fun! The good thing about our profession is that we can practise it every day. :)

It surely is crazy that we even have to learn to be ourselves in any given moment, but that's truly what it is. It's the same with characters that are very different to us: Yes we’re supposed to be that different person, but it wouldn't be a believable person if it wasn't for our personal relationship to it.

Can't show pics from set unfortunately, but this is the beautiful sunset.
It has been funny to me that some non-actors come off better than actors sometimes and I've been thinking about that. What I came up with is they either don't have a tendency to over think (can also be caused by too much training) or simply have no fear of reacting naturally. So… Let's all ground ourselves to find the truth about how we would truly react. It’s quite an adventure; but feels great!!

Yours HollywoodNista